How often do we put things off until tomorrow, until next week, next month, even next year. Its amazing how quickly a year can go by and you realize that nothing has changed, not your life, not your happiness not your wants and not your needs. You stay stagnant…you idle along slowly. Procrastination buys us time, so we don’t have to make those tough decisions, the uncomfortable ones, the ones that may leave us and others feeling a little out of sorts for a while (sometimes a lot worse than that initially, but necessary). More often than not, it will never be the right time, but we also know that we will never advance in our lives by indecision and waiting until the ‘perfect moment’ , waiting until our kids are older or have made it through exams or school, or varsity, our bank balances are healthier, our homes are happier, our debts are paid, our lives are less busy, we have better jobs, or until things miraculously change or get better, or we are struck by amnesia and manage to forget, and as time goes by we continue to say to ourselves, soon, its complicated, its tough, we’ll see how it goes, we never know what the future holds (it may hold nothing if we’re not here to see it). Look 5 years ahead and you will more than likely be stuck in the same place as you have been for the past how many odd years, asking yourself why, why didn’t I. Chances are, you have the answer already and sometimes, there are people that come into our lives (some come back, co-incidence, i think not) to shake things up, to wake us up, make us question life as we know it , make us feel alive again, awaken our sleeping heart and soul, to show us how it should be, how it could be, how some things were everything we wanted and prayed for, everything we dreamed of, but now we’re deathly fearful and terrified of change and the unknown and of judgement by others. Until someone has walked in our shoes, let judgement be left to the One who walks on water, He knows our hearts , knows our sorrows and our pains, as well as our intended life and soul purpose and we are being guided daily and pushed in the right direction, i guess sometimes this leads to discomfort and questioning everything. Until we learn to listen..we will keep bumping our heads. Go figure (insert eye rolling/raised eyebrows here)
Everything we have been through in our lives has strengthened us and gotten us to this point in time, through tragedies, heartache, struggles and pain, this acquired He-Man power has been building over time to help us get over lifes impending speed bumps and potholes and to enable us to plow through hurricane Hilda’s older sister and find our way home. Sometimes home has 2 eyes and a heartbeat, whether you’re a cow or a crab, we all long for a place to lay our weary head and call it home.
The unfortunate truth though, is that nothing will ever change unless we ourselves make the decision to change whatever it is that needs changing and we make it with firm intention because we know that although our next steps and path may be uncomfortable and rocky now..it is for the greater good for ourselves and those around us and for the happiness we’ve spent our lives dreaming of and wishing for. There is no time like the present. People around you will adapt and it will eventually all make perfect sense. Those close to us are happier when we are happier, much the same when we are unhappy. The more you are around and exposed to a certain energy, the more you become that energy.
I too think that a clear indication of someone’s value in your life would be to say that , if you were to wake up tomorrow morning and never be able to see, speak to or hear from this person ever again…how would you feel, would you be okay with that? Would they simply be a nice memory, a not so great one, a sad one, a forgettable one, or a regret, a what if, a question mark, a why didn’t i, that you will live with for the rest of your days on earth, wishing you had taken that step forward, grabbed hold of that extended hand , one that by the grace of God has been brought back to you and thus giving both a second chance when older and wiser. Time doesn’t heal all wounds, it just covers up the scar. Tomorrow is never promised, yet so many of us waste our today’s thinking we have time…what if we don’t? What if we put off making that one decision, that needs to be made and live the next 40 years wishing we’d been brave enough to say…this is what i need, this is my serenity, my peace, my calm, my safe place, my heart can finally breathe again. Be brave, find courage, find strength . Life is meant to be lived, not endured or simply soldiered on (we’re not at war nor waiting in the trenches, we need to go and smell some roses, or maybe just great coffee)
Live for today, for now and let all your tomorrows be happier more peaceful ones. Its not to say there will never be stormy weather again, but it’d be far nicer staring into the eyes of someone you truly love saying, id rather be beside you in the storm, than safe and warm on my own. Love is forever.
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